I feel so empty these days. 

I know that there a lot of things I should be grateful for. My parents are constantly reminding me to be thankful for all the blessings I have received. They don't want me complaining about my work and all that's negative about it; telling me that the struggles are part of life.

Nowadays, I just take it one day at a time. I pray to the Lord every morning that He may let me survive that day. Start and finish the day without any problems. So far, so good. It's all a routine. That's what's wrong about it. I don't get excited about anything, anymore. I don't look forward to special days anymore. It's really frustrating. 

Also, I feel like I'm losing people. They are starting to feel detached one by one. I have to accept this, I know, but it is really hard. I have reached a certain point that I questioned myself - What's wrong with me?, Why am I losing these connections?. 

I am struggling, really. 

These thoughts are keeping me awake at night.  

The Sandman

 

I loved the first season of this series. It was well thought of.  From the concepts, to the lines, to the cinematography, and everything else were really good. 

I am looking forward to the next season. I hope the sequel will be even better than the previous one. :)

Super Show 9 Manila 08.06.2022

Yes, I was there. I got to see them in person, performing live. The one group that got me into kpop, my forever love, Super Junior. As an elf of 15 years, it was a dream come true as this was my FIRST EVER Super Show. 

I had mixed feelings about how the events turned out. An announcement, a night before the actual concert came. It was devastating news. The father of Eunhyuk suddenly passed away. He was not able to fly to the Philippines to join the others. Hours before the actual concert, the promoter announced that the members discussed until the wee hours of the morning to cancel the concert, as they could not proceed with the performances thinking that one member recently lost a family member. Despite the concert cancelation, they still met the fans who came to the venue. They still managed to sing 3 songs. 

I had mixed emotions during the short fan meet. I was holding my tears when every member greeted the fans and apologized for the cancelation. It was devastating to see them shed tears. The people that always bring you smiles were crying right in front of you. But at the same time, I was over the moon. I cannot believe that they were right on stage performing. The group that I supported for the past 15 years was singing live and I was their to witness it. Wow. Just wow. 

And let us not forget. I was able to see in flesh my ultimate bias. Lee Donghae. He was unreal. He is just too good looking. Wow. I was really happy. 

They promised to be back. To greet the fans with smiles and to perform their hearts out soon. I will be there to witness it and happily wave my SuJu bong. Fighting SuJu!

From an ELF with 💙

Compre Exam Results

Fortunately, the compre exam was done online. We have all the freedom to search for references given that you do not exceed 15% in plagiarism results. We had to subscribe to sites that will help improve and check our answers. The whole two day duration of the exam was thrilling yet exhausting. The time limit for every subject was 90 minutes. You have to really think fast, click fast, and submit on time. It was really an experience.

First exam results. I failed one subject. It was advanced statistics. I haven't got a clue how to answer the questions. I expected this one. On the brighter note, I was able to pass the other nine subjects. I was really happy. All my effort was not in vain.

We had to retake the subject that we failed the first time. I was desperate. I looked for someone who would help me to answer the questions for the stat. Fortunately, I found one. He was generous enough to be on standby to receive and answer the questions. He did answer the questions for about 45 minutes. I was really glad. I did not have any idea how to answer those questions. The professor who gave the questions was not the one who handled our class, that's why I was clueless. 

I did manage to submit on time the answers I received from the good sir who helped me. And I managed to pass the subject thanks to his help. Whew. I was relieved. I passed the 10 subjects. 

Compre Exam (08.13-14.2022)

Who would've thought that I would reach this stage in the academic journey I started last August 2020. I survived two years of online classes, done a ton of requirements for all the subjects, answered multiple questions and participated in group discussions.  It was quite an experience. I am done with all the required academic subjects. I have passing grades for all of them, thankfully.

I am really hoping to pass all the subjects given in the exam. The examination fee was quite expensive, retaking the exam would mean another payment. Huhuhu

Compre Day 1

(08.13.2022)

Compre Day 2

(08.14.2022)